TRUE LIFE | she has Low Self-esteem

on tha bed, the floor nd even tha counter top 3hrs a day, sweaty nd tired ponderin the aftermath. "ave anyone found my key?" she asked, curious to open her soul, a glimpse wud be great, jus to see how beautiful she is. mirrorin her existence, sho'in up her flaws she wud wonder... so she search nd she search if she had onli knew, as in like a device it was built-in.

yet som styl, 2:3 u do the math, avent found their core purpose on grounds so they drive round their self on low esteem, so others can vicariously watch their episode on Mtv True Life:

bound for destruction. remote areas to their destination, its inevitable to grind, ridin so low as in gas, dope pick ups takes advantage, put som confidence under that hood nd boost ya esteem game Up.

by any means..Pookie 'tie him' (Be Aware)

ive heard on different occasions about the infamous 'tying.' dont rly kno much, eventho ive heard how its done nd som reasons why its bein done. nt sayin much either bt words once said from the wise "money is the root of all evil," well this is the brother-wood; they're related.

as in there was this dude who fell in love w/ this upscale ghetto chick. he did everyting he cud which entails lyin, disrespectin nd connin his ppls so that she cud be happi by any means. nt gna even front she was into him probably nt as much as how he was w/ her nvr the less they were together.

Guys Be Aware! he wud eat nd sleep at her crib,vice versa occasionally. one day she decided to cook the famous "stew peas," its bein prepared normally bt she then also added her .....secret ingredient.....<---which is the catch, nt goin into details nd give away the 'tie him' secret. bt w/e reason she ave done this for, it worked cuz nw she fell out of love nd u kno wat appen... he's styl a bait on her fishy line, wants to let go nd cant.

Happy Belated Birthday to Martin Luther King, Jr. (jan 15)

...in gud time!

som'times we as ppl look at ourselves from a mirror point of view. tryna capture the 2nd dimensional picture perfect person we try to be nd tend to tlk face to face to ourself. as in why...? "why is there nothing gud ever goes as plan?" or mos' importantly in my case "why this shyt cant go my way?" we all at a point ask ourselves this question. eventho, we kno thas not a life trac God wanted us to hear, if its on our CD of destiny he'll mos' definitely skip the trac or invite som'one in our life to tell us in due time.

angry nd upset we tend to be, keepin our eyes open in this situation we cant rly see eye to eye w/ God as in thru prayer. this sad condition ave us mad, wanted it so bad nd som'time we verbally affect our closest frenz, family or anybody around w/ the anger.

worryin over this minor setbac now introduces stress A.K.A foe nt a gud fren. so throw on ur hater blockers nd take notes, today's lession God teaches us the state of bein rejected. pay attention, this experience makes you stronger nd if ur plan was inevitable its all gud.

MENTALLY ILL

...here preein nd observin the behaviour of the mental mind structure of our generation. generally noticin, we ave a higher G.P.A. on negativity nd a few passes positively which is so ironically improper.

dont get me wrong, we ave gud ppls bt there's no motivation bein given to the less sober minded junkies. as in like the emoticons on msn'ger y cant we jus do the smiley face :), winkin smile ;) or the surprised smile :-0 in other words jus bein str8 'JOVIAL' nd the whole 9 yards. they blieve nd i quote "thas pretti darn borin" hence negatory became more active in our bac'yard.

at som' point we are all victims; mindfully bein strong, physically livin edgy-->so i cud be a murderer i wud kill time nd knoc boredom lites out so she cant shine. i wna be locked up nd sacrifice mine that healthy minds can breathe freely on...

Power Thoughts!!

(life gets BETTER wen ur around the rite ppl!) He who walks w/ wise men shall be wise.

The narrow thinkin of individuals in ur inner circle can ruin ur chances of havin a better life. (watch out!)

I will find out wat im supposed to be doin & be 1 of the bes that ever did it!