Say I Am

im tired of proofin shyt to niggas

so im anyting that u say i am

so wen ur in ma face, sayin im kool

2 face, behind ma bac tryna play me like a fool

sayin shyt like "he dont tlk much" blah bly blah

"that mean his mind's empty" blah bly blah blah.

did u say som'n?

cuz i sure knew u didnt..

bt com'on nigga; stop thinkin aggressive

that move shud not be legal

second time; shyt cud get letal

now u sweatin like a fudge

threaten, wont even budge; now sayin shyts illegal.

com'on son, man up! oh..now u were jus playin around

u think this is an improv

well i dont like actin

alotta ppl been askin, y i dont tlk much

bt som'times i jus ave ntn to say

bt lemmi tell u this

the mind is like an illusion; rly som'n u cant see

i tlk once therefore i think twice that means i tlk less

my thoughts ave bigger thoughts so that makes me strong minded

been through alot; ave alot on ma mind so i dont tlk much.

Holdin on/ Lettin go

firstli i wna say he was her everyting

such a sweet tlker, he feed her anyting

butterflies in her stomach, she had the bes of tings

bt this was jus for a period

som'n like actin

until he got wat he was huntin.

then problems started addin; she insist it was love..

bt where is the lovin?

kept holdin, thas easy blind folded in front the situation.

there is a solution

here is the pic, remove ur position nd try to envision

witnessin ya man poppin off, feedin u b/s in tha kitchen.

do u like how he's treatin u ma?

do u see how much pain he's givin u ma?

i guess nt; u styl ponderin

wat if... as in if wat?

com'on mane ur weak; thinkin lettin go is hard.

Flavour of my L.I.F.E.

lemmi jus start off by sayin...

life is gud but for me thas not enough.

its bittersweet moment as i hunt

non complacent, so i chase after som'ting.

call me cocky, bt you cant stop me

i'll styl leave HOPE behind.

pursuin the prey, mottled green camouflage scheme,

i blend with the environ

concurrently tryna empower the mind

seekin solace as a precaution towards lonesome.

like gamblin its a No! No! they nvr choose risk,

pathless as in a square suffocatin, thinkin outside the box.

adventure thas where i wna be at, explorin.

grant me a permit! the licence to get out

further i wanna look to their backs, wavin as i walk out.

unhappi nd depress as i wud be while goin along lonely,

one wish; carryin everybody.

leave this borin town, enter bein entertain by dreams;

its bittersweet story.

Changin a Playas Game!!

been hurt all her life

ownin up to this man wen he sneaks her roundabout

he fuckin around her bes fren, his ex fren's girl nd the girl he jus met rite now.

this shyt cud get dramatic if they all in the same town.

he's a playa.. playin football thas wat he does

i admit we're human as in challenges we tend to adore.

som'; str8 up jus ignore!

kno'in the fact she looks gud, som'n like the bes

thinkin she cud win him over the res

as if it was som kinda quiz, this aint skool of elementary

tryin that 'hooked on pussy remedy'.

btw isnt he readin poorly; hookin him up to phonics already.

intentions of changin a nigga

as in rly...

stupid ass.. as if it cud work!

guess she was misinformed about the power of pussy..

its obvious u transform lower, how is ya head game?

there sweatin out ya weave, bobbin that ping pang

fucked up ya mamas sheetz nd he left pleased.

if he doesnt wna change

there's noting u can do.

more than kic som gravel then travel

you can NOT change ppl !

Import a Nigga

hubba! habahaba! laughin like 'George of the Jungle'

nigga u on crac.. this aint 'Madagascar 2'.

covered w/ fur like som kinda movie star

both comedies were gud tho.

there stan'in lookin like 'Erykah Badu'

u kinda now remind me of the flick 'Comin to America'.

he was like No No No! me from Nigeria

u not understan my accent?

ok ok imma tell u wat he told me thru my terms.

i had to leave, frenz tlkin bullshyt like its there decision to kno.

nd i dont ave the heart to beat these b*tch niggas

cuz they're bein influence to rob on the go.

as in for the clout in the streets,

they more likely ave u watchin

implicatin corruption nd ethic violence.

had a tlk w/ my family nd they agreed that,

marryin an outlander was the safest way to get bac.

was already international like my f*ckin visa tho

so i came here lookin...

luckily enuff i met Ms. Rightfornow, rite after i landed.

finalli bindin as one, four months after..

so we too can exists jointly avin 'one love, one heart'.

its now significant to reside in her nation

processin my stay up in this region.

Valentines Love

bac'in it up! as in like a scratch record.. *errrr errrr errrr

to 3 weeks ago, where i was jus hangin out.

like the skies out of the blue, my baby was like...

"wat yu gettin me for valentines?"

as cocky as i may sound, i was in over my head...

rubber stockin by flavors

som'n like a "Rap It Up!" ad

about gettin her bedroc.

mind so dirty, as if i avent had a bath.

youth we're grown unfortunately she called me over the phone.

i told her som'ting else tho; som'ting she wanted to hear

seein as in the third sense i felt her happiness

no im not a jerk, i wudnt disappoint her.

decide on givin her swagger, eventho she was already fly tho.

double wings, she sky high now

thas where im at touchin the sky tho

we flies, we flew miles away

overlookin yesterday, wat is the forecast for tomorrow?

like a time machine, i had to get bac to the current

here i am now about to purchase her present.

Lonely Valentines

inside thas where she stays

tears like blood in her eyes; period

thas the beginnin of the month; February

Valentines she hates.

bac against the wall, lonely

where she stand w/ a stuff pony.

four edges som'n like a quadrate

squarin down on her.

swearin she's jus too picky

tryna pick Mr. Right

in that case, i bet you kno Hermit

kiss the frog, go ahead boo.

com'on i kno u not a dummy

this shyt aint walt disney.

or u mus be high off weed smokin

wen you kno that shyt is harmful

open ya arms let a potential nigga in, thas harmless.

type of nigga to give his girl the world

who's respectful, carin nd kind

cuz shyt.. he kno she's worth it.

together in itseslf is a holiday treat

Happi Valentines Day!!

Bad Romance

admits ur always gettin hurt

BULLSHYT!

you attract wat u deserve.

we all play games jus to see who's stronger

we play around jus to see who's better

together we hurtin each other

we write a bad romance.

like a santa, i give swag

i look gud.

she told her ex-love, love cant buy her

so she approach nd hugs me tighter.

imma jerk as in i kinda like her.

she got swag which her ex loan her, her sex appeal like WoW! oh thas natural.

i turn her on thas y she licks my extender;

like a leech its obvious y she sticks on my exterior.

i play along cuz i ave money

together its called a bad romance.

mos'times ppl play w/ their mate's feelin's

jus by sayin 'Love You'

thas b/s not kno'in som'times like a bac'hoe ur crushin their emotions.

bruise aftermath, hard after that

openin up to the one

who rly listens, feedin us butterflies to our stomach

kno's our flaws yet tender while unreserved

som'one we deserve.

heart bein torn, scarred by the image of the previous

as in lyin, disrespectin nd the cheater as the killer.

bulletproof vest, protectin the heart from cupid arrows

hence we dont love; we dont blieve in love,

together we write a bad romance.

TRUE LIFE | she has Low Self-esteem

on tha bed, the floor nd even tha counter top 3hrs a day, sweaty nd tired ponderin the aftermath. "ave anyone found my key?" she asked, curious to open her soul, a glimpse wud be great, jus to see how beautiful she is. mirrorin her existence, sho'in up her flaws she wud wonder... so she search nd she search if she had onli knew, as in like a device it was built-in.

yet som styl, 2:3 u do the math, avent found their core purpose on grounds so they drive round their self on low esteem, so others can vicariously watch their episode on Mtv True Life:

bound for destruction. remote areas to their destination, its inevitable to grind, ridin so low as in gas, dope pick ups takes advantage, put som confidence under that hood nd boost ya esteem game Up.

by any means..Pookie 'tie him' (Be Aware)

ive heard on different occasions about the infamous 'tying.' dont rly kno much, eventho ive heard how its done nd som reasons why its bein done. nt sayin much either bt words once said from the wise "money is the root of all evil," well this is the brother-wood; they're related.

as in there was this dude who fell in love w/ this upscale ghetto chick. he did everyting he cud which entails lyin, disrespectin nd connin his ppls so that she cud be happi by any means. nt gna even front she was into him probably nt as much as how he was w/ her nvr the less they were together.

Guys Be Aware! he wud eat nd sleep at her crib,vice versa occasionally. one day she decided to cook the famous "stew peas," its bein prepared normally bt she then also added her .....secret ingredient.....<---which is the catch, nt goin into details nd give away the 'tie him' secret. bt w/e reason she ave done this for, it worked cuz nw she fell out of love nd u kno wat appen... he's styl a bait on her fishy line, wants to let go nd cant.

Happy Belated Birthday to Martin Luther King, Jr. (jan 15)

...in gud time!

som'times we as ppl look at ourselves from a mirror point of view. tryna capture the 2nd dimensional picture perfect person we try to be nd tend to tlk face to face to ourself. as in why...? "why is there nothing gud ever goes as plan?" or mos' importantly in my case "why this shyt cant go my way?" we all at a point ask ourselves this question. eventho, we kno thas not a life trac God wanted us to hear, if its on our CD of destiny he'll mos' definitely skip the trac or invite som'one in our life to tell us in due time.

angry nd upset we tend to be, keepin our eyes open in this situation we cant rly see eye to eye w/ God as in thru prayer. this sad condition ave us mad, wanted it so bad nd som'time we verbally affect our closest frenz, family or anybody around w/ the anger.

worryin over this minor setbac now introduces stress A.K.A foe nt a gud fren. so throw on ur hater blockers nd take notes, today's lession God teaches us the state of bein rejected. pay attention, this experience makes you stronger nd if ur plan was inevitable its all gud.

MENTALLY ILL

...here preein nd observin the behaviour of the mental mind structure of our generation. generally noticin, we ave a higher G.P.A. on negativity nd a few passes positively which is so ironically improper.

dont get me wrong, we ave gud ppls bt there's no motivation bein given to the less sober minded junkies. as in like the emoticons on msn'ger y cant we jus do the smiley face :), winkin smile ;) or the surprised smile :-0 in other words jus bein str8 'JOVIAL' nd the whole 9 yards. they blieve nd i quote "thas pretti darn borin" hence negatory became more active in our bac'yard.

at som' point we are all victims; mindfully bein strong, physically livin edgy-->so i cud be a murderer i wud kill time nd knoc boredom lites out so she cant shine. i wna be locked up nd sacrifice mine that healthy minds can breathe freely on...

Power Thoughts!!

(life gets BETTER wen ur around the rite ppl!) He who walks w/ wise men shall be wise.

The narrow thinkin of individuals in ur inner circle can ruin ur chances of havin a better life. (watch out!)

I will find out wat im supposed to be doin & be 1 of the bes that ever did it!